Mission trip Adoration, a love hate relationship

Adoration is an amazing thing. I mean sitting in the presence of our Lord Jesus Christ is amazing. It doesn't get much better than that right? And its great. I feel his love. I know he is there and I know he is listening. I love being able to pray or sing or just sit still. But at the same time I hate it. When I am alone with my thoughts usually I am okay, but during adoration, especially tonight, I was thinking about so many things. I was praying for some intentions and for my mission trip family and for all the people we served this week. And then I got to thinking about our theme of being fearless. And we've been telling these teens to be fearless and let go of their fears. And when they asked what my fears were at the time I said small stuff like storms and driving next to eighteen wheelers. But I can finally give them, and you, the honest answer.
I am afraid of change, and being alone, and of the unknown. If you don't know I like to know what's going in my life and I like to have things planned. And right now so much change has happened in my life over the last few weeks. I lost my childhood home and I feel like I have no home. Sure I have my apartment and my parents' beautiful new home, but neither of those feels like my home. I don't like that feeling. Then Danny graduated and moved away.And even though we had our own things, he was always right there just a walk across the street for the last 3 years. I took that for granted and I'm afraid because  I can't call him at 3am to see who is knocking on our door or to take care of me when I'm sad or to make me laugh. I'm scared that he could end up halfway across the country. I know in less than a year he will be stuck with me (bless his heart) but so much happened so fast it freaked me out little today. And I know I'm not alone, I have my roommates, my friends, my Saint Peters family, and someone named God who is ever present, but it's still difficult and I'm still afraid.
So I prayed and continue to pray that I find peace and realize that change can be okay and that I'm not alone. That no matter what God is with me and that my true friends and my family will never let me be truly alone.